This is what I sat and wrote about by the River…

I get ready
I choose my finest dress
I step into pencils
And click out of my address

To another,
hosting a party in through the big, red gate
I do like red,
But will have to excuse this date.

I cross the big gate and walk towards the river
Rubbing the blue robe on the street all through the way
I can’t walk fast so shall I rather try to run?
So that I break them heels to make an excuse to throw them away?

I reach halfway, still clicking on the ground
It’s getting dark, I see fewer people around
It’s good because that is what I would like for tonight
Just me, a pen-a paper, watching the flowing river in the moonlight.

I finally reach the banks, it must be cold
Cause’ the only folks I see, they shiver
My skin doesn’t move, not an inch
As I stand there straight, looking right into the river

I climb downstairs, now I am closer
Just a few steps and my hands will be wet
It’s the Ganges and we worship it first with its water in our hands
Before our feet inside it we set.

Now it’s silent, I can’t hear a soul
Only the water, flowing
Touching my soul.

I sit,
I want to stay there
Till the color of my robe matches the color of the sky
Till when there are plenty of sparkles
shining out of my eyes.

I want to sit by the river
And think of the times
When I was there barefoot
And my clothes didn’t shine
When dad would push me in
Making a big, thunderous sound!
But instead of sailing,
My ship would drown!

I want to sit by the river
And think of how
He would catch hold of me
And pull me out somehow

“Ready for another push?”
He wouldn’t ask, I wouldn’t allow.
Next moment, I would be in the water again,
Struggling to swim somehow!

I want to lie by the river
And think about you
About the similar peace
That I would get with you…

I want to touch the river
As if it was you
I will swim through it tonight thinking it was you
I want to hold it and kiss it thinking it was you
But damn!
It would slip out of hands as if it was really you!

I want to walk by the river
Thinking of my friends
My priceless possessions,
My everlasting trends
My babies, my parents
My strength, my ears
With whom I have shared all my laughter,
My fears.

I will not waste a second thinking about the people who left
They don’t matter anymore, not because they left
But the ones who managed to stay even after they left
Are the people I will sit and smile about by the river…

I will think about the relations that lived
Will not whine about the ones whom life dismissed
But those which fell off weak even after I built them for years
Are the ones I will sit and cry about by the river…

I will wipe off my tears,
When it’s the break of dawn I see,
Now I will let go of the gold
And let go of the heels

I will hide them
And pretend as if I lost them in the dark!
Now I am barefoot again and suddenly my eyes have a spark!

I am waiting,
Maybe dad would come and push me back into the river?
Wondering if now he would ask for permission since we are older?
Hoping this time, I will sail through the river
Explore a direction I had been to never.
Hoping I will find my way back home, like ever
To the people we call as family, or rather call them forever?

I will not forget to think about the people I love
Whom I couldn’t have with me, forever?
Whom I dream about every day,
For whom I could get locked up in a cellar

Whom I wish get everything they ever want in their life
Love, success, compassion in their life
Whom I could give up my dreams for,
Let alone my life
These are the people I will sit and Pray for by the river
These are all the people I will sit and write about by the River…

It makes me sleep on the couch without a question!

I was tired and was about to sleep yesterday night when suddenly it showed up in my room!

Without giving my thought any second thoughts, I jumped out of my bed, taking my pillow and my bed sheet in one stretch and ran out of the room!

I kept my things on the couch that was in the hall and tried to divert my mind. Sleep was gone away and the couch was small, my legs weren’t fitting.

At midnight, my grandma came out of her room to switch off the fan running in the hall, thinking that mistakenly I had left it on. She asked me why I was there and I told her everything. She said she would help me, no actually I wouldn’t do anything so yeah she said she would shoo it off (all by herself)  from my room in the morning.

Morning came too early and we were all awake by 4. We have a festival here so my grandma had to do preparations. My grandpa was simply moving around.

At 09:00 I begged her to go to my room and check it out. Thankfully she agreed and went in with a broom stick.

She was moving all the card boards and the boxes in the area where I told her that I had seen it.

Okay! It was a lizard! I saw it the night before. It was big, it was huge, it was dark , it had some kinda spots and it’s already freaking me out so I will stop describing it!

My grandma was trying to find it but then when she couldn’t she told me something. That was the reason that I wrote this post today! Whatever she told me, Idk if it was funny or fascinating, I will write it down.

Me: See carefully it will be there in that corner only! I am sure it went there last night!

Grandma: It has probably gone now. It has other jobs to take care of.

Jobs? She can’t be serious!

Me: What job would it possibly have?

Grandma: What? It can’t sit here all day in your room! It has its own works to complete.

Me: What works?!

Grandma: Who will find food for it? It has to only go in search of it.

Hahaha! Surprised by her answer I decided not to speak anything in return. At the last she couldn’t find it in my room and so I planned to sleep on the sofa tonight as well.

Me: I will sleep outside tonight. Just in case.

Grandma: What are you going to do in your life? Lizards are there in all homes you can’t be afraid of them. They don’t do anything they just move here and there and then go back. They don’t do any harm!

She can’t be serious. They move around and go back? And all homes? Who said that? My home is definitely going to be free of them and of all other insects. And if, if by any chance it comes in, well I will be having neighbours for sure!

Anyways,

Good Morning! 😀

You as a habit are stronger than I thought!

Now when it’s all over and I wake up alone

I go to fetch some coffee as usual, at six

I don’t like it, it tastes different today

Should I call and ask you how many spoons of sugar you used to mix?

I can’t right? Because I am made to know that you are gone?

So I get ready to go to work, but I don’t see any car outside

You taught me that taxis were not for us

And now who is going to give me a ride?

I somehow reach office on foot

You as a habit are stronger than I thought

But now how do I concentrate on work

When there is no coffee packed in my coffee pot?

So I fetch some of it from the canteen

It tastes bitter; I guess it was made to exactly match my mood

I leave it on the table and forget about it

What had to be done with your memories, I guess I understood.

I pack my bag, the empty flask

Then walk myself to the now-empty place 

I wonder if I was in love with you

Or it’s your coffee that I can’t replace?

I thought we would last longer

Longer as in till the Sun ran out of its light

We still had to finish that list, remember?

The one which we started that night?

It looks quite simple as I write about it

But it’s actually very hard to go through

I am planning to cut the coffee tonight

Like beans on the ground, all my parts you have strewed.

So I am planning to brew some coffee while asleep

I wonder if I have still got that fire burning in my heart

If not me, it will definitely know my taste

If not it, who will join back my parts?

So when I wake up tomorrow, as usual by six

I will know the proportions by heart

Though now I have decided to reach office on foot, it’s good for health!

Few people and habits just leave you smart!

They asked me,”what are happy days?” I said,”Today seems like one!”

I can’t confine happiness in a box and then give that box a name. I don’t know how to define happiness. But I feel that today is a happy day. So may be I can name happiness as “today”?

Yesterday appeared a small plant for my ‘happy’ tree that grew big today. No doubt the roots emerged in the dark a while ago when I unknowingly watered and fed it with nutritions.

My friend Fin suddenly started to hymn a song, ” la la la la… nikita..I actually wanted to dedicate this song to you!”

“why?”

“these few lines “…..” they remind me of You… I feel connected…”

Yesterday I picked up that already-trashed song again and heard it a few times but it seemed a lot different. One direction was directly singing for me this time! Thanks to the lyric video on the Youtube. Playing those few lines again and again. Only those few lines. I don’t know if it was sane but it was making me smile and I wanted that smile. I wanted it.

Playing it on repeat in my head  for a thousand times and counting,I swear with every next time it feels a lot fresher. A lot newer, a lot better. I didn’t know that few things, few obvious things which when stated so plainly could make one so much happy. Few credits, few dedications. I don’t know if it’s a special post but it’s definitely a special day and I wrote it so I can remind myself someday in the future that all this was Real! That whatever happens, nobody can drag me down!

So quickly brushing up the facts, the happy tree didn’t grow overnight. I had to work hard for it and feed it continuously with my life. And what I learned is, it doesn’t matter how cold things are, the Sun is always going to shine and warm us up again!

Lets work hard for the things that matter to us!

  Lets fight for the things we wish for!

  We have got just one life!

Let’s live and not just survive!

Let us all be poets and never be ashamed of what we feel

It’s just one life we have got, so better we keep it real.

Let us all follow our dreams irrespective of what ‘they’ say, they are gonna say anyhow

Let us accomplish our ever seen dreams, let us actually live and not pass our lives somehow!

Because it’s just one life in our hand

Let’s not compromise it, let’s make it big! Let’s expand!

(I know I know it’s too random but I really wished to write a poem today and I have to rush a bit right now because I have a lot of jobs to finish before I go to sleep so I don’t have much time today  and I am not proof reading it! ( Promise for a good one next time! : D) My results were published in the afternoon which came out pretty good hence adding a little more breadth to my smile today. : )

#February ❤ 🙂

the beach day!

Yesterday it was really boring since morning and so we all decided to go to the beach. Few of our relatives said they would come along and we finalized the plan. It was more like a picnic. We booked two cabs, four people in each and decided our destination as the  Besant Nagar beach.

On the way, we changed our plan. Dad decided to go this very famous temple which would come on our way, to the beach. We all happily agreed.  My mom and dad are very religious people and I have been brought up the same way. We enjoy going to temples and worship places. It’s quiet there. So quiet that you could hear the inner voice of your soul speaking to you,telling you what things going on in your life are right and what things need to be changed. Blessing you with peacefulness.

Finally we reached the temple. It is called The Ashtalaxmi Temple. It’s huge and beautiful. It was already 5:10 p.m  by that time. It has many idols and going around the temple would take at least 45 minutes. But that was not possible because soon it would turn dark and we had the beach on our list too, so, we used the JUGAAD technique. 😉

Let me inform you all, that this is a very famous technique mainly used by the people belonging to the Indian State- Uttar Pradesh (me and my family belong to a city called Varanasi, falling in this state). According to this, we do a particular work using as many shortcuts as possible, completing an almost unbelievable-appearing task at the last minute. And of course completing it beautifully!

Quickly we broke few rules and joined in the middle of a very long line. Few people opposed but we didn’t listen them. Okay…I know that sounds being rude to the other people, but sometimes it’s just necessary! Result-  We came out of the temple in 15 minutes. We sat in the cab again. Finally we reached our destination- the beach!

It was very crowded, more than I had expected. I could see people of all age groups enjoying themselves. I quickly folded my jeans and went in. With the very first touch of the water, I forgot about everything else. About my semester exam results that were about to be released, about that little fight that I had gotten into with my friend, about the many miseries and unhappiness. I forgot about all the bad things in life. I was happy!

We all enjoyed a lot and clicked few pictures at the end. Then we left. Later that evening, we all went to the very famous hotel called, Rangoli located at the basement of Sarvana Bhavan, at Pondi Bazaar and had a wonderful dinner. We came back home by 22:00. The house was peaceful as always, but today no one was staring uselessly at their phone screens, or watching a movie to pass the night. We were at peace at our minds to. So tired, we all fell asleep within minutes.

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According to me, we all should plan for vacations. Whether for a few hours, or for a few days, but it is necessary. To keep us active and concentrated in our work, we need to be at peace in our minds. We need to re-energize our body and our souls. For at the end, it’s the happiness within us that counts. Yes, work, job,money,college,school and family are important, and so are WE to ourselves.

hope you liked it! wait for my next post! I’ll wait for your response!

bye! 🙂