Alone on the top

I climb the stairs one by one
Losing my people as I come
Closer to the top
Don’t know what have I become
Is it alright?

At night I look out of my window to see
A peaceful street ever-so-lonely
Much less than my life I bet
Tricked by dreams and debts.

The streetlight suddenly shimmers and I look again outside
A few people just passed by, out of my sight
It’s about to rain and before the night starts getting wet
I quickly grab my phone and switch on the internet.

I position the camera to capture the sky
But since too tired and sick of posting stuff online
So I just capture it and print it and write this story on it’s behind

That when I leave it and someone gets it,
They have my words on their mind.
On their lips, in their hearts|
A little moment I’ll define.
This moment of theirs particularly to me I’ll confine.

I’ll tell them it’s okay to be alone
Well at least for sometime
And that life is huge and people affluent
Surely some good company you’ll find!

Don’t just adjust for anything just cause everything else seems undefined
Define it,
Give it words
Style It
Call the birds
Tell them to tell the world
At the break of dawn
About it.

That’s about it. I guess I am done for tonight.

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While in-Love:

Take me with you
Take me to the End of the skies!
Baby skip the hellos, goodbyes
And let’s start living our dreams
Let’s BE-WILD!

Baby bear with me when I shout in my sleep
Move your hands on my hair, kiss me to sleep
Take me…
Take me for a walk to the End-of- the world,
Sweetie parade your comfort in your shoes and I’ll flaunt all the pain in my heels
Let’s talk out of senses and loose our grip on the feels
Let’s BE-HIGH!

Let’s break all the fences in between
Let’s tell them that we know how to be
Be WILD-IN-LOVE!

Baby take me to the depths of the world!
Let’s swim with the fishes and you pick me those pearls
Let’s bring alive the things we wrote on our list
And I don’t mind if at times we talk with our fists
As long as we TALK-OF-LOVE!

Baby take me to your room and make me your queen
I’ll talk through my eyes, sweetie try to glean what I mean
It’s not hard cause you know what I mean
I mean Love.

Baby let’s hold our hands and spread smiles
Feel lucky for all those little whiles
That we got to live in each other’s dreams
When we got to be as wild as we wanted to be

Baby take me to the Heavens with you!
We’ll go hand-in-hand no matter what comes through
Let’s compliment all our Gods on the pair that they made come true
Let’s BE-IN-LOVE!

One moment we burst, like never before

and collide through our skins,

Our words are hot, bodies cold,

and anger takes on a ten fold.

 

Then it rains,

and we drop our temperatures from the seventh floor

We integrate.

You break into drops and fall into me

I turn into Upsalite,

accepting all of you in.

 

Now we have our days,

cohesive, tight, fitting right into each other

believing death is our only bitch

that can throw us apart.

 

We reside on the seventh cloud

with passion in the wind

riding through our sins

passing out every night, just to wake up all anew.

 

But then we burst again, like never before

colliding through our skin

hotter words, colder bodies

riding through our sins.

 

So we let go and fall back to the Start

With number one we begin again

Levels of doucheness

Margins of pain

 

But hey! Darling, I don’t care

of the number of cycles we repeat through,

for as long as you are standing at the Start with me

I am always ready to begin anew.

 

 

Running

I was running out of words

As I have run out of feelings

There are cuts, burns

But they never make me cry

There are people, scary

But I never speak in shriek

My voice is firm since a while

I don’t care what people say

There are going to say anyway

So I let them.

I think we all are waters

Some boil underground

Some are frozen over hills.

But I am the one who comes in your tap

Since the one who is running is only me.

I have lost a few and I don’t want to get them back

Since, I feel I lost them for good

Or may be that they left me for good

Their own good

Maybe they are better off without me

Because I am the one who comes in your tap, not them

Some use me, some save me, some throw me away

But I am always running

I don’t know from what, or whom

I don’t know when God has planned to turn off the tap

Or if He has plans to give me another direction

But today

I have got to run

Because that’s the only thing I know.

giving love is so difficult?

them – it’s your birthday week, tell us what gift do you want?

me love.

them– What? We’ve got dollar bills, don’t you want something else? Dress? A watch maybe?

meno, just love.

them– Ask for something which we can give.

It makes me sleep on the couch without a question!

I was tired and was about to sleep yesterday night when suddenly it showed up in my room!

Without giving my thought any second thoughts, I jumped out of my bed, taking my pillow and my bed sheet in one stretch and ran out of the room!

I kept my things on the couch that was in the hall and tried to divert my mind. Sleep was gone away and the couch was small, my legs weren’t fitting.

At midnight, my grandma came out of her room to switch off the fan running in the hall, thinking that mistakenly I had left it on. She asked me why I was there and I told her everything. She said she would help me, no actually I wouldn’t do anything so yeah she said she would shoo it off (all by herself)  from my room in the morning.

Morning came too early and we were all awake by 4. We have a festival here so my grandma had to do preparations. My grandpa was simply moving around.

At 09:00 I begged her to go to my room and check it out. Thankfully she agreed and went in with a broom stick.

She was moving all the card boards and the boxes in the area where I told her that I had seen it.

Okay! It was a lizard! I saw it the night before. It was big, it was huge, it was dark , it had some kinda spots and it’s already freaking me out so I will stop describing it!

My grandma was trying to find it but then when she couldn’t she told me something. That was the reason that I wrote this post today! Whatever she told me, Idk if it was funny or fascinating, I will write it down.

Me: See carefully it will be there in that corner only! I am sure it went there last night!

Grandma: It has probably gone now. It has other jobs to take care of.

Jobs? She can’t be serious!

Me: What job would it possibly have?

Grandma: What? It can’t sit here all day in your room! It has its own works to complete.

Me: What works?!

Grandma: Who will find food for it? It has to only go in search of it.

Hahaha! Surprised by her answer I decided not to speak anything in return. At the last she couldn’t find it in my room and so I planned to sleep on the sofa tonight as well.

Me: I will sleep outside tonight. Just in case.

Grandma: What are you going to do in your life? Lizards are there in all homes you can’t be afraid of them. They don’t do anything they just move here and there and then go back. They don’t do any harm!

She can’t be serious. They move around and go back? And all homes? Who said that? My home is definitely going to be free of them and of all other insects. And if, if by any chance it comes in, well I will be having neighbours for sure!

Anyways,

Good Morning! 😀

You as a habit are stronger than I thought!

Now when it’s all over and I wake up alone

I go to fetch some coffee as usual, at six

I don’t like it, it tastes different today

Should I call and ask you how many spoons of sugar you used to mix?

I can’t right? Because I am made to know that you are gone?

So I get ready to go to work, but I don’t see any car outside

You taught me that taxis were not for us

And now who is going to give me a ride?

I somehow reach office on foot

You as a habit are stronger than I thought

But now how do I concentrate on work

When there is no coffee packed in my coffee pot?

So I fetch some of it from the canteen

It tastes bitter; I guess it was made to exactly match my mood

I leave it on the table and forget about it

What had to be done with your memories, I guess I understood.

I pack my bag, the empty flask

Then walk myself to the now-empty place 

I wonder if I was in love with you

Or it’s your coffee that I can’t replace?

I thought we would last longer

Longer as in till the Sun ran out of its light

We still had to finish that list, remember?

The one which we started that night?

It looks quite simple as I write about it

But it’s actually very hard to go through

I am planning to cut the coffee tonight

Like beans on the ground, all my parts you have strewed.

So I am planning to brew some coffee while asleep

I wonder if I have still got that fire burning in my heart

If not me, it will definitely know my taste

If not it, who will join back my parts?

So when I wake up tomorrow, as usual by six

I will know the proportions by heart

Though now I have decided to reach office on foot, it’s good for health!

Few people and habits just leave you smart!