And she started leaving, first my bench , then my friendship, (we both would often dream of each other while asleep, scary-good-bad-mixed feeling dreams) and she left my nights. Gradually she left my days too. May be unknowingly, but she was working perfectly fine on that job and her next target for departure was going to be heart. My heart, where I had crowned her as my Queen. I would cry, shout to myself, be immersed in grief throughout and wanted to make her stay anyhow!
Because my Heart still wants her to be My Queen. That’s what she was AND is supposed to be. A Queen. Supposed to be adored and took care of not because she is incapable of doing it herself, but because she deserves it.
I have told her before, that I love her, as a Sister.
She gave me no other options but to love her and now I miss her.
If I had other options, even then I would choose her.
My mind, my heart, my subconscious self can’t refuse her.
She’s short but is standing tall in my mindspace,
Making memories which neither of us can erase.
We have fallen half the way and its just a half that remains
But what about our matching nails? And the size of our finger which is just the same!?
There is no hope I can see but my eyes are still finding one,
She says, “let’s sort things out” and soon I’ll be defining one.
There is thirst and there is water but we don’t wanna drink
There is pain and burn in the eyes but we don’t wanna blink
I wanna speak her all my mind but I know I am gonna fail
Once Our love was red as blood and now its growing pale.
The keyboard has its keys but we can’t press the ‘L’
And ‘O’ , ‘V’, ‘E’ are lost to a place that we cannot tell.
I know you are reading this now and I just wanna say
That let’s be Sisters again, just for the day.
p.s – if you want someone to be in your life, you have to make an effort for it. Because after a time everyone leaves and moves on, but if we love them enough we can always give them a reason to stay!